An Illusion...

I want to reach the origination of human mind. I only hoped I could see what the lord had in his head when he was creating a human. I also know that such thoughts can only, occur but a human being doesn’t have the required energy to take in certain universal facts.. How could he make us the way we are… Sometimes I feel its all an illusion. The birth, the life, the journey and the death. The Death of course is an illusion. This write up is specifically about this. I am glad not to have seen a death among the close ones. Touch wood. The pain of the death is unbearable any day. It’s a loss of life, that’s what we can see. A lot of things are unseen, unknown and unsaid... But we sure have an idea about it.

I have a sinking feeling every time I hear about someone’s death. I get so disturbed for weeks. Though the person, its happened to ain’t that close to me, its still difficult to take it. We are born here for a purpose. And it really pains the most when one bids goodbye to their journey much before the time. Some people are too young to die. One of my friends closest friend died a mysterious death.. Nobody knew what happened..!! Or may be someone knew. Who knows.! The boy dint have to meet this so soon. He still had to make a long journey here. I heard about another friends friend, die. And she died out of anger. There is no past, no future. The truth is only the present. One who stays matters, not the one who leaves. May be these souls are born again, to fight back the things they left behind. May be they are punished by the universe for ending their lives without the consent of the universe. In such cases, one lives with only may be’s, if’s and buts..

Its never the end.. It is said that, we human beings are as eternal as the universe.. We shall exist till we empty out our hearts.. There are so many worldly possesions, similarly soul possessions.. One takes birth with the purpose of going back to the universe.. And how do you do that?? Well, it seems like a game of dolls for me all the time.. We are sent here to experience certain things and we are supposed to learn things the way it is.. Not less, not more.. If we learn less we are sent back again to learn upto the fulfilment, if we learn more than required, again we are sent back to shed the excess.. What a system..! I also happened to realize that, we are always on our own.. However, there are certain masters, who work towards us to show us the path.. They show us the path to life and ahead, through situations in life.. Through certain unknown feelings, through certain intuitions.. Our body, mind and soul speaks what’s not known to us sometimes.. We are born to live beyond the basic needs of food, water, sleep, sex, work, money etc. These are the basic things that one makes his journey through, which is much needed of course..

In the time given one must laugh, smile, live, forget, forgive, move on, let go, ignore, show compassion, love each other, care for the man kind and so on.. Cause once the time is over, the accounts are tallied, and its done by time itself.. Some one not understanding this post, don’t criticize don’t worry, your time hasn’t come yet.. When its your time, your soul will give you certain lessons, and that will happen every second of your life.. You just have to be clean enough from within to listen to it.. Shed the garbage.. Make way for your soul to speak.. And the one who’s understanding, am sure am connecting with you..

                I love the way people in the west welcome death.. They wear clean beautiful clothes, cover they eyes with sunglasses and behave very dignified.. Yes, a trait called attachment hurts the near and dear one’s immensely in such scenarios.. Like I said, I get disturbed by just hearing about it.. God be with people who have experienced it.. But its only an illusion, and the person would have just decided to leave the body.. The soul still remains, infact its in a better place after it leaves the body.. Its guided by the path makers.. Why do we cry and rant about it so much and make it difficult for the soul to be.. I don’t know how and when people are going to understand this.. Cause, the only key to purify your soul is to be fearless.. The one’s who are fearless have seen and felt fear the most, but just that they have gone through the process of letting it go.. That’s something which doesn’t come that easily..

                The ultimate test is to get over the fear death – cause its always the beginning.. Its only important for us to make sure we live a life which shall be remembered and which can be an example to the coming generation.. That’s how we teach our children.. To meet an illusion is actually the best thing that would happen – so when you are ready to go – go freely – not with fear.. More than the illusion, live life so beautifully that you don’t have to be worried about freeing yourself from your own locks in the coming lives.. Remember, this life is always the preparation for the next.. Remember, there’s always a better world for a better human being..!! Live Fearless of things within you.. J

 PS: This topic is subjected to one’s own perception and perspectives.. But some day, all of us are going to come around the same point – sooner or later.. J J Every time I write a post, I wait to write the P.S part… Ohhh how I love it.. J

A Dream....in living..!!?

A small dream that stopped my reality for a while......
People usually dream, some dream in sleep, few day dream, and few dream with open eyes..!! Lol.. Dreams are interpreted in many ways, as it is related to the mind, body and soul.. What one can't finish when one is in a state of conscious, itseems it is finished in one's sub- conscious.. Example, if you are too angry with your boss and you can't express your anger, you ll probably show it out in your dream..You would probably shoot your boss in your dream and nah... you wont be put into jail for that :P
If your are an efficient worker and your work is not completed, you probably complete it in your dreams.. These are the simple kinda dreams, where your conscious mind knows what your sub- conscious mind would like to complete, in order to live in peace.. :)
                                  There are also few dreams, that is connected to some thing that you are not aware of.. If some one has been nice to you from the outside, but you get a wrong vib, or if one is too very fond of you and if its not possible for them to express, that is when - I guess we dream about few things that we have never thought of.. We may just wake up that morning and wonder; why you actually dreamt what you dreamt of.. You might just think your mind went bonkers... Hahaha... 

Some times I get so confused of my dreams.. There are times when I know that my dreams are initiated by me.. Some times, I also believe, we dream cause we had some thing unsaid and undone in one of our lives.. Previous Living.. An old experience of the soul.. The feel of our previous experience with living, people we met, people we were connected to, our deeds, our principles, lifestyle, everything comes along... You are just left speechless for a long time, cause when you have such a dream experience, only then will you ask yourself, if what you saw was a dream??? Or, if your soul took a journey back to its old place, when you were deep asleep..  Such an experience leaves you, energy drained, you simply dunno where those places are, who these people are, and what feelings you felt... Aahhhhhhhhh..!!!! Human mind- so complex, a soul- more complex - yet so simple.. 
                            I had one such dream.. A reality dream.. Lol.. I dont know what else to call it... You the reader, might not be able to believe the small experience I had.. But hopefully, I can get to tell you how it actually was.. What it is...?? Is upto you to interpret.. :) for me, it was ME, in a life - that I can't remember..!! 
                           Inside my dream - "All I could see was, I knew it was me.. Someone called me with a beautiful name, but I guess I'm so busy being Suraksha that I could'nt hear my name in the magic world..!! haha.. The girl, was pretty, tall, slim, dusky, long bushy hair, she had worn a white speghetti (a sleevless top), a blue Jeans.. she was walking on the footpath, and beside her was a man, walking on the road.. She was with him, but was all alone .. I guess he was the husband.. Talk dark and handsome (like every girl wants - as per few novels :P).. A loving husband.. The girl was walking on the footpath and the man, walked on the road..They still walked beside eachother - but on different platforms.. The dream showed me, what the husband felt for her.. There was so much love in that man, not a word I heard in my dream, it was only his feeling that was evident to me.. I then wondered, if people's actual feelings can be reflected in dreams.. tcha...!! His world started and ended with her.. His days and nights were all about her.. 
       On the left side of the footpath, was the end of the earth.. It was a bed of deep blue water that spread over miles - so far that I could'nt see land across at all, an ocean it was.. A huge world where we don't live.. The ocean was covered by deep blue sky, with a tinge of white clouds.. The sky was moving with the flow of water.. It was as if like, the mother was looking at her child, and the two of them were growing and moving together... The waves were hitting the shore with its highest power.. Yet so calm.. 
         The girl walked, holding the long chain, hanging with a cross, in her hand.. The chain was long and the cross settled on her stomach.. I could see the minutest details on the cross, as if it was my own.. It was silver in color, faded a little, lord Jesus christ engraved on it, with the crown of thorn on his head, and his hands nailed across.. I could'nt believe I could see so much and yet remember it after I woke up.. But I did...! Glad about how much my memory could hold ;) This was very touching cause - I in my dream was holding it while I walked in my solitude.. The town I lived in was a peaceful town, my people had so much love for eachother.. I was called a good wife, yet I was alone, quiet.. (So unlikely of me - the now me!.. hahaha.. I know you agree*winks*) 

My life was so hard as I walked all alone, beside the sea.. I could see how the nature brings in similarities between human beings and its elements.. There was so much deep down inside, I was peaceful yet there was something that felt unhappy...Like the sea - its sooooo deep, it holds all its living beings in its bossom - it gives everything that it has, and yet - its as if like - its fighting to go home with each wave.. I still don't understand, what was the problem inspite of having everything.. My husband loved me so much, and I did not love him the way he did..There was some thing that was not okay.. But I just walked.. I held my lord then in my hand, and just walked.. May be that was a walk of belief...A walk of faith..!! Me and my husband, just walked all through my dream - we neither looked at eachother, nor did we talk... I am not sure if life got over there.. Or it just started..........
Love is such a strong feeling.. It knocked the door and showed me the taste of it in my deepest sleep.. Gave me the essence of a life that I lived once upon a time.. The morning I woke up, the feeling was immense.. I was someones 'life' in my dream, and I did not know about it.. Its a mystery, I don't know if life then ended that way, or some thing better happened.. But the love that I could feel through my dream is simply hard to take. Or explain.....

I only wish I find that man sooner.. cause I have been stronger ever since I saw that man, who lived for me..!! I only wanna meet him again, so that some thing that is left incomplete in the universe, comes to its completion.. !!!

P.S: The dream was incredible.. Probably this was the second real dream I have had in my life that took my breathe off...{The first one was a nightmare.. (Don't ask..!!)}.. It was like I went in the time machine took a walk with that man, and came back.. Splendid..#Beautiful experience of an unexpected dream..

Teen Been..

The best phase of life I would say... Probably the best things in life happen at this age.. You are growing up from being a kid.. You can see people, assess things, know whats right whats wrong.. Take responsibility for few things.. You try smoking, drinking, hanging out with friends, do all the craziest stuff.. you feel your parents are over reacting at this age, (actually its the other way round :P) A time of experimentation..New clothes, new accessories, new phones.. 

There is a possibility of doing all the wrong things and learning what is right..! Or there is a possibility of doing all wrong things and retaining all the wrong in life.. And also there is a possibility that you know whats right and whats wrong and you do whats necessary for then.. There are some people who have seen the dark and go towards light, they are the best kind of people.. And there are also some people, who have been under the ray of light and who go towards the dark.. When the second thing happens you know you are screwed.. haha..! This age is actually the time where one is moulded to be what they are.. Of course, people get better with time, but this age gives us the shape that we obtain..

What not happens when you are a teenager, you are so innocent, you fall in love so easily, you have people giving you attention, you exactly dunno what to do with things.. Everything is new, everyone seem like your best friends, everything is so rosy.. When I was a teenager, I thought the people in my life right now are going to be the people in my life forever.. Little did I know that people drift apart.. The number of friends I had then was too much.. Which was of no use.. The idea of friendship to me is more than love.... You accept a friend for what they are.. And no matter what, you are not gonna leave them alone, in any sort of a situation... Rights and wrongs are the dualities, and it does'nt work that way at all.. The one who stays, is a friend, the one who stands for you is a friend.. The one who naturally cares is a friend.. And so is Love.. 

I was also just thinking, falling in love is sooo easy at that age.. Now I am standing on a platform where I feel, this thing called 'Love' is like the 7th sense of a human being, that destroys all the six senses and makes a person completely 'Nonsensical'... lol.. hahaha (this was a troll msg I found on Fb :P).. But thats so true.. Love does'nt happen that way.. Its not a fairy tale.. A boy and a girl are two normal people who like eachother, and who would like to be there with eachother.. Thats it..!! simple! Love usually might fade away, its the will to be with eachother is what matters the most..!! The will and the respect towards eachother keeps the love alive...

We think of a life, settling, having kids, families in such a young age.. Well, our parents keep telling us, that life aint that easy, life aint that rosy, and that this is not the time to make decisions for oursleves, but we dont listen, and we hurt ourselves.. haha.. ! Seriously, age matters so much.. Age, experience..!! Thats why may be people say, nothing is the end of life, life always changes, takes turns, gives twists.. 

But there sure are beautiful moments and beautiful people in your life from that age..!! There will always be one boy who's loved you so much that hes still crazy about you.. There sure will be a beautiful dress or a pair of old jeans from your teenage, there sure will be stupid gifts that you made for someone you thought was special..You will have a favourite cell number that you would never forget (which is probably your password now).. you will have one person that you wished was with you even today.. And most importantly your teenage teaches you, that there are no two words, that actually exists but we use it all through...

Words like 'Forever' and 'Never'.. They really don't exist.. You might have told someone you ll love them forever, but no - it changes.. Or someone else might have given you a promise saying they will 'never' let you go, but no, they would have let you go in someway.. Forever and never - does not happen practically.. Its only today and present.. whatever is there today is the truth.. :)

So, you are lucky if you have known what is good for you, and what is not.. Our life is made of our own choices.. And we make our path through those choices.. Well, in the matter of love and togetherness, some of us are lucky, and some of us are strong soldiers of the Lord.. For those who are lucky you still have the one you have loved, with you, and for those of us who are the soldiers of the Lord, well we have so many things coming up for us.. We still dunno whos gona land and stand strong in our lives...but once they arrive, well you'll get to live the life you were waiting for...........

We all have been through Teen, and its made us all stronger in all ways.. We take on life over us, from this phase and the walk is still on.... We are still walking, towards a better phase.. towards a better place.... :) :)

PS: A summary of all those little little thoughts and memory from teenage.. could put in some, left out some.. Hope you got the feel.. ;)

New Beginning....!!

Yes, A new beginning.... It is said that, something that ends in life, brings a new beginning usually... My old blog, had 4 of my thought processes, I started when I was just done with my graduation.. Realized writing is my bit, and I need to spend more time on it... I call myself a 'shy' writer, hehe...  I write only for myself, and I feel noone's reading it, coz people have opinions, one may think am great and the other may just put me down - but I sure would want my loved ones to read it.... So, if you are reading this, you know you are loved ---- by me! :D I am 23 as on date, and I strongly decided only today to keep this writing thing a serious activity in my life... I realized its of no use talking your feelings out to a someone, not everyone will understand you all the time, (thats normal), so writing is always a pour out.. From past three to four years, I dunno what I have been busy with..No time for anything..!! (which is bad).. I was a failure when I was 18 - and sat back for a year, only to realize what has happened, how it happened, and what am supposed to do in life ahead... After that year, I have'nt moved ahead without a plan, without a path - direction, in my head.. So, as things have settled down a bit now, I am on this.. I'm loving the flow of words, its completely impromptu, and am sorry, if you - the reader aint getting the connection between one line and the other.. ;) Will try to better my writing with each post..                                                          'A walk through...............' came across when I was just texting a friend.. I asked him for suggestions on a name for my blog and he said A walk through......life, Journey, and I tried adding as many words as I wanted to complete the Title, (afterall its my blog, I gotu give it a name :D).... Somehow, late in the night, while texting my friend goodnight, I decided, let the name stay 'A walk Through......' A walk through, what? That you can fill in... I have observed, most of our lives is incomplete... Some way or the other.. People who have everything, still have the feeling of incompleteness... If not forever, atleast during a small phase...(you cant deny it) So - kept the name hanging.. Coz, I guess I have been walking through so many many things, and I still dunno what I have walked through ;) Life teaches us,  how we can make our lives complete by accepting the feeling of incompleteness I guess... and also, it gives us the liberty to add or fill in what ever we wish to... So everytime, I open my blog, I see ' A walk through.....' and I go on filling words, as per the feel for the moment :D :D

Well, its a saturday morning 10.49 AM, and there is so much more coming soon in here...For now, I love the wind blowing outside, I love the ginger tea I have made for myself, and the novel am reading just while writing this, I love the bad weather which has got me fever, and I love the new bag I 've bought.. :D :D I am in love with the silence, the leaves moving with the wind, the shy sunrays on my balcony window.. Hoping to have a good weekend..!! You there, have a nice day too..! :)

PS: Ignore the grammatical mistakes if any..! ;)

EIGHT DAYS OF HER LIFE....and u were loved..!

                                     We meet certain people, we remember some and we prefer to forget some... Some don't register in our minds, some leave extraordinary feeling about them in us....! We love some for no reason, we hate some for, may be, one reason... Some hold a special place, and some remain people, we just know.... 

In between all this, some of us have an extra influence on another kind of life..., On another kind of living being, we don't need friends and people at times when they are around us, we are its masters, yet they are our teachers sometimes.... You lend a hand of friendship and you'd be its best friend, you reprimand it, and it 'll wait for you to play with it again... You give a part of your heart to it, and it 'll  give you its whole heart.... Loyalty is a trait given by nature.. Its, as if, born with platonic love and a sense of belongingnes....!! Yes, I am talking about the cutest and most compatible beings called 'DOGS'......puppies...! 

Dogs and puppies are the pets most would love to have.... :) A puppy and its form of life is the most enlightening thing to have around.. When a puppy is born, its  probably born only to be loved... At home, while we were awaiting a new life, She gives birth to 2 of her imprints, and both are girls.. Its spectacular to witness how beautiful animals too respond towards their kids.. I guess that's why a mother can never be defined.. A mother is a mother, human beings or animals.. And it sure is a miracle when she gives birth...! :) The 2 lil pups born - lights up the house brighter than anything. We know there is life- breathing out of a small body.. Love, touch, care, concern seeps in. And exactly after the 8 days of light in her eyes, breathe in her lungs, lil lil touch of love from us, and sharing the warmth of her mum and sister - one cold- rainy night decided to take her away............................................................................

She is one lil soul, deeply remembered and loved... :)

Worth........... Words of anger...!

                   It is said that people realize the worth of the person they love, once they lose them. Is it true? People are dependent on other people, in one way or the other. Simple law of 'Man being a social animal'.. When one doesn't realize the worth of the loved one when they 're present, what is the guarantee that the value will be known after they are gone? And if the value comes to light that way, do they really deserve the person... Loads of food for thought we get each day, one must just be hungry enough to find the food.


No...!! wait.... actually, if one is genuinely hungry, I believe the food will find them..
                   
                    Similarly, I don't understand why 'Understanding' someone you love becomes a hard task sometimes. People these days are so held up with so many unwanted things, that they forget to spend more time with themselves...!! It is when you spend more time knowing yourself, you succeed in understanding the other. I said  'Unwanted things', in the previous line,, cause everything becomes unwanted if you don't spend the time u're given, to know yourself first.. Many, as I see, have greater problems in relationships cause of understanding..
                     In love, in family, in friendship, in togetherness, one doesn't see 'himself' in it. U can be the best at understanding someone only if you see the relation as 'YOU'..! It is in every human to love themselves more, a basic instinct, hence they forgive each wrong behavior, words, thoughts, actions etc when it is theirs. Understanding in a relation misses out when you see the person you are related to, as another person.


 People forget, that, whether they know each other or not, they are all related to each other, as a part of the Universe.. Relations become successful and happy only when one sees himself in another. It happens very often, that one feels not understood, not loved, not cared for. I myself have gone through such feelings every now and then.. After such feelings have passed, I think - "Really?? Is it that hard for someone to understand me?? How much more simpler must I make it for someone to know me? What else should I do?" And after such flow of questions, this was the only thing that struck me - " I need not do anything. I am what I am made to be..."
               

It is sad when people you love the most, refuse to understand you (ps: failing to understand is one thing, and refusing to- is another), When this happens, its time to let them be, in their garden of cactus.! Some who realize come out of it, and some start enjoying the prick of thorns. So when such a thing happens, I tell myself that - There is no need to be sad, Just cause someone you are being awesome to - is not awesome to you ;) ;) because sometimes it is in your birth to be awesome to people in the right way. If your own person is failing to understand things, allow them fail..... And only be hopeful of them passing through this someday. And presently be happy that you are able to give such wonderful thoughts to mother earth, father sky, brothers and sisters who are around - the wind, the water, the fire, and the nature herself. Cause no matter what, this family would always back you, for giving out good thoughts.....! :) :) :) 

MY BEST FRIEND..!!

BEST FRIEND... :) Am sure all of us out there have found a best friend in some one or the other.. For the ones who don't have, don't worry... Someone somewhere sometime,, will prove to be the best to you..! :) :) Few of them are extremely lucky to have found the best in a school pal, some find the best in their siblings, some run behind finding someone best, and some stay aloof, alone not wanting any other person best for themselves... Well, my best friend happens to be the one, who brought me into this world....!! My Mommy :D 


                                                  BEST people happen to us, when they love us unconditionally, care for us inspite of us not doing anything back in return, not judge us in our wrongs, one who doesn't ask for an explanation, instead understands what we would have done or what we wouldn't have..!! Best is one who doesn't need the tag of being the best, who's immune to insecurities and who never gets bored of being with you in and out of life... :)


                                Infact, there are many who call anybody and everybody as their best friend.. lol ;) I don't get the concept of someone being your best friend over night! haha! ;)  On the other note, as a matter of fact, nobody can actually be 'dee' best to anybody, because we are human beings, and want it or not, we keep evolving..! Change is one thing that constantly accompanies us... But, the fact, the harsh practicality is a lil hard on us, so we choose someone we know consistently as someone best.... And if such choices work, there is a feeling of being special, and if they don't you have a lesson... :) :)  MY BEST FRIEND and me have a lotta differences though I'm an extension of her... Differences to such core that We feel we're each others enemies at times, but I still choose her to be someone best to me...


                                                            I happened to write about this topic, as I see a lot of people depending on having a 'best friend', some of them lose track of their path and get into agony in their search for a best friend... So, all I am saying is, Why to search for the comfortability in something and someone that is not reachable to us..!! Instead, life can be made beautiful by opening your eyes, allowing your heart to feel, and looking for the ones around you, understanding the ones around you, coz there are times when we would have ignored the most important person's in our lives. (P.S unintentionally though :D) Life seems to be at its best not coz of a friend alone in it, but with what you make the best of it..... :) :) :)   ISN'T IT?? :)